All I ever wanted was experience. That’s what i craved, but fear held me back from doing so. I finally put fear behind me and met someone. I really like him. I might’ve took things so far too soon but i mean i can’t change that now. There is a lot of thinking to do. No doubting about anything just thinking what i need, what i want, and what i should be. I now realize how different it is to actually be in a situation like this. Throughout life i kept telling myself what everyone else constantly says but when you’re in it you realize that it’s different and maybe minds change. I think i always just listened to everyone talk and believed in what they said but not truly believed it. Now i know it’s much different and i have my own opinions. I hope this doesn’t mess up because i really like you. There is all this noise that surrounds me and it’s hard to listen. I just wanna do my own thing. I wanna experience this. I wanna be in this with you without my parents telling me their opinions. I’ve heard your opinions already. There is no need for me to keep hearing it because it just makes me want to shut you guys down and i start building walls between you guys. Just be supportive and nice about it. And really all i ever did want was experience and here i am experiencing and it’s been really fun experiencing life with you so far.